I have vast wealth of food and drink,
more than one would need in a week,
and nothing to do all day but play and dream.
The end of days is better than it might seem.
It’s ok to smile,
free to feel fine
as we slide
out of time
Still seeking revenge for my birth
by fading away
without worth or meaning.
Lazy, ungrateful, no useful purpose.
Unable to simply give in to being.
What if it’s not about reciprocity,
velocity, jealousy masked as scorn?
What if the secret unsheathed is
once conceived, gestated, born
random occurrences synthesize as stories?
Phantom worries, gnawing remorse
coalesce as lessons, stake the course;
but only synapse deep, lightly tangled weave.
Tales like talismans gently spin. Tell me,
tell me, tell me my name and my mission.
It can’t be my decision. I am too weak,
Flickers, auroras in peripheral vision,
fits of flitting firefly hues, crystal
gems emitting signals in dark and light.
Constellations in the night corralling chaos.
Prayer, meditation, fast of purity, breath
centered on the wind, stillness, serene.
Not a lake, but a river, flow of history.
These stories, told as if we know,
as if they are the campfire that formed us
from mud and mystery.
These are not our essence.
We are the fire, the river, the gemstones,
ever falling from the sea.